How did you do it? | jiggy286's Blog

How did you come to take over my life so completely and me none the wiser until you withdrew completely? I never even noticed you were busy peeling back the layers of my soul, examining every one and coming to know me in such a way that no one ever has bothered to. Why did you waste the time getting close just so you could hurt me? My heartache is constant now like the act of breathing. Sometimes I don't notice it hurts at all so used to it am I, it has become an undercurrent in myself a part of my being that I have grown around and absorbed. Did you do this on purpose? I occasionally try and leave it behind, I run from something, I don't know what. I go as fast and as far as I can closing my eyes so I can't look back. I try and outrun the tears but I've learned now, no matter how fast or hard you run pain always runs faster and cannot be outdistanced. How did you do it? How did you steal my mind, my heart, and soul away leaving me none the wiser until you left?